the importance of reverence

the annual all souls' procession occurred in downtown tucson this past sunday.
once more it was a spectacular and awe-inspiring event. i kept telling myself to treat it as not only a spectacle, but a gathered moment of sharing reverent space with thousands of others. in effect, i challenged myself to see it as a spiritual experience.

the artists controlled the streets and led the many on-lookers into their introverted habitat defined by metaphor and symbol moreso than habit and material. they walked on stilts, with elaborate costumes resembling insect drones who swarmed around an even more meticulously crafted "queen." all the while, flam chen performers hung 200 feet in the air suspended by single wires. they spun furiously and independently around a "cocoon" tearing at it until it was nothing but a shredded shell.

an urn passed down the main stage/loading dock behind the rails where thousands of participants and spectators gathered for the grand finale. the moment it was raised into the air as well, the crowd roared and roared and roared ad nausea um. we lost control of our voices and let them arise in a moment of shared effort. as the "queen" metamorphosed into a butterfly with high-rise floating capabilities equipped with a very large torch.

slowly it approached the urn until the energies of the entire night finally converge and..........the urn burned. ashes blew and merged into the air as did everyone's thoughts of reverence, irreverence, joy, depression, contentment, grief, understanding, ignorance and everything else.....they immersed singularly into the blackness of the faroff desert sky.

and at once i remembered and swore by the importance of reverence.

words cannot express...

"Had they been the ones dying under the cooking sun, picking through the dust, scratching at the barren earth, had it been THEIR insides spilling into the sand, they’d see on cracking land their spirit cannot triumph.
Take a breath. Sit back and relax.
Enjoy your moment of peace. You’ll soon be back in the middle.
Prepare for this one to make you flinch in disbelief. When you catch a glimpse of those just following the paths that got us to where we are.
Who are these human shadows with still-beating hearts? Why do corpses litter the road? Scratching at the door to our paradise. Who are these humans?
So this is paradise.
Beyond the distant hands of the world. Here we all think we don’t belong but still bow our heads to our Emperors. Is this all there is? Maybe we really have nothing to say.
Maybe we truly are just shallow and lame and we’re all just waiting for the end, the spectacle, or some kind of catastrophe to bring us back to earth to stun our ever nodding heads.
To introduce us once again to the one incorruptible as she flushes us from her veins. Kills us to live again. In case you wonder - I’m not trying to be cynical.
I know how you feel - If your life’s disconnect. In case you wonder - “What the fuck’s wrong with me?” If it all makes sense you’re the furthest fucking gone.
They’ve got badges that they cover with their hands while they’re bashing your fucking head. They’ve got graveyards that they’ll fill with that head if you start getting anywhere.
I won’t pretend that we’re on the winning end.
But when did that matter before anyway? That never mattered before anyway. "

Life at Disconnect - Propagandhi


...how much i love thee.

part 2

memories and remnants spread sinewy,
like plasma but chewy across the sheets,
stinging then fleeing
leaving a deceiving
portrayal of
the illusory

splattered across the floor.

i trust faded perception
and frighten strangers
for some form of connection.

as the heart purports to cry more so than it lies
the truth shall never "truly" arise.
leaving languid language
to describe
what is essentially interpreted
through three eyes.
yet, sadly a ghastly
human production
and a mostly
shabby disguise.

The impact destroyed the smaller body, vaporising huge amounts of rock and flinging plumes of hot lava into space.

it's only fitting that i was listening to acid mother's temple and the melting paraiso U.F.O.'s album cometary orbital drive as i read this article. enjoy...
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/science/nature/8195467.stm

for promotional purposes solely

eric drooker, artist, check him out. i've been intrigued as of late, see why....

for the martyrs

To all of my friends, some of whom I've made as a result of being a part of the band "Blues", you are all cordially invited to see my final performance with said band.

It will take place March 1st @ Hotel Congress in Tucson, AZ with other friends
Juarez.

Come early, have some drinks, share memories and such.

much love, and i truly hope to see you all there.

"May the best you have ever seen be the worst you will ever see.
May the mouse never leave your grain store with a tear drop in its eye.
May you always stay hale and hearty until you are old enough to die.
May you still be as happy as I always wish you to be."

im never swimming in the ocean again

listen to the new giant squid record, :the ichthyologist:
currently treating my aural capacities to new, unknown levels.
badass.

go to this link

http://www.scientificblogging.com/news_releases/neural_plasticity_and_selfrepairing_brain

then---->

Recommended Reading:


Norman Doidge- The Brain That Changes Itself

"An astonishing new science called neuroplasticity is overthrowing the centuries-old notion that the human brain is immutable. Psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, Norman Doidge, M.D., traveled the country to meet both the brilliant scientists championing neuroplasticity and the people whose lives they've transformed; people whose mental limitations or brain damage were seen as unalterable. We see a woman born with half a brain that rewired itself to work as a whole, blind people who learn to see, learning disorders cured, IQs raised, aging brains rejuvenated, stroke patients learning to speak, children with cerebral palsy learning to move with more grace, depression and anxiety disorders successfully treated, and lifelong character traits changed. Using these marvelous stories to probe mysteries of the body, emotion, love, sex, culture, and education, Dr. Doidge has written an immensely moving, inspiring book that will permanently alter the way we look at our brains, human nature, and human potential."

friends

in the past 3 to 5 years I have lost a growing amount of friends....be it due to suicide, drug abuse, or simply
strange yet fatal circumstance. although in my 20 plus years preceding the frequency of unwanted death
remained minimal. life seems to speed up as a spiral...time being only some conjecture that gains momentum
exponentially. my point with all this is that with my current realization that time dwindles ever rapidly (especially in our relative perceptions) i have learned to truly appreciate those that have and will continue to have a positive impact upon my daily life. so, to all friends and family reading this that i may not speak to on a regualr basis know that you are so very loved.

RIP Eli Bliss